Wondering

So, I was wondering why we wait for that special one to come. Why we look desperately for that person that make us feel unique, special, needed, loved. Why do we mess up so many times while waiting for that special one. I was jealous and upset when I heard that as soon as she was "single" her ex start talking to her, texting her, etc. but then I start to think. I start to wonder that maybe he really was waiting for that moment to come to him. maybe He has been looking and maybe he is trying (at least that is what I think/wonder). Another people start talking to her, texting her, another people start looking for their special one. I am wonder.
On my birthday I got a couple of messages from people who I haven't talked for a while. Some ex's. They are good friends of mine after our relationships have ended. Some of which did not ended that well. I apologized to them for that already. However, one my ex- I never could apologize with. She sent me a message and we talked for a some time. It meant a lot to me to be able to talk to her and get everything cleared out.
Every relationship leaves a mark in our hearts. We love differently every person and we develop new feelings that we never thought we could feel. It is good to clear things up with previous relationships so we can move on to new relationships or perhaps rediscover that special one.