keeps moving

The more I watch from a distance the more I realize he is okay. He is happy. His life and dreams are moving forward with or without me. Is that suppose to mean something. That he wants to be alone. That he is okay without me. That he wants to have his journeys with everyone but me. What does that mean. At one point I remember him missing me when I was still standing in front of me. Now he is okay.Now he doesn't have to miss me. He is okay with just with our memories of a beautiful love and nothing more. He is happy.   All I know is that it hurts to hear him be okay with everything. As I watch him debate weather he wants to be with me or not. I realize that it has to be the case. He is deciding if we can continue our journey or end it. I would never be able to do this unless I had doubts about our relationship, our future, our love. It would be impossible for me to just say we can't be together without any doubts.  But all I can remember is what he told me and I try to keep it has simple as that, with no other distractions or clutter destroying my beautiful memories.I remember how he loved me and how he tells me he still does. I keep my love true and hold to my word.