Why

"why 6 months of silent?" several people have asked. I answer: because we needed, I needed it. Her question of what would happen when I travel somewhere else for work bombarded me with question of myself and our relationship. Were we moving so fast that we were not think everything through? And what would really happen when we are not together for 1 or 2 months? Will she get tired? Will I get tired? Will our love get tired of waiting? I don't know. But we really have to think this through. Some have said "let the future you and future her deal with it" well I can't cuz when that happens it will hurt more. We are not married and we do not have kids. So, there is nothing tiding as together but our feelings, our dreams. Right now is the moment when we have to think this through when she can walk away if she wants, when I can walk away. I know we don't want to do that. But this time we have to use it wisely. We have to think and reconcile with our families. I barely met them, they barely knew me. We have to think not only with our hearts but with our minds and think the different options of work together, or if itll work together. We have to leave jealousy behind. We have to leave past mistakes behind but not forget them. We have to rememeber what we like and especially what we dislike about our adventure, think how we acted when we were together, was it really me? Was it good? Were we honest? What did we do to upset each other? What we didn't talk? 6 months may seem long yet there will be a lot of adventures in that time that we will live alone and evry those adventures will make us realize either that we really l and are ready to make that commitment or to avoid the hurt and pain down the road when maybe harder to come back. 6 months, a whole summer. Yes it is sad and hard. But I hope she uses it wisely. I hope she thinks putting aside her heart for a second too. Mind and heart combined can make us stronger that ever. They may disagree sometimes but at the end they always support each other once we take some time alone with each one individually.